Could

 

Could

I could, but do I want to.

I have said this to all my children and a few friends. Once or twice I said it to my husband.

Sometimes when we are thought of as go-to people we get lost in others' needs. It’s okay for a time, but then the overwhelm rears its ugly head and we feel lost, exhausted, taken-advantage-of, frustrated.

Where is my time?

I have found a cure for the But Do I Want To.

1.       I remember my go-to people and pray for them. Then I thank God for them. I would be dead without them.

2.       I go to my calendar and find a day or half-day for me. I block it out and hold it sacred, asking God if it is His will, and if so would He hold it sacred as well.

3.       I take time on that day to spend time alone, with God, with my pen and paper, with nature. I close my door, go to a quiet room, go outside on the porch or back yard, go to my car and close the door.

There are so many needs swirling around me. I cannot do them all, but I can do a lot, through Christ who strengthens me.

Sometimes more than I ever thought I could.

I could, and yes, I want to.